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Friday, April 2, 2010

i just wanted you to know

you know its a slow day in the office if i upload twice...but seeing that I probably won't blog over the weekend , lets just say i'm making up for it now,

sometimes i wonder if you ever loved me
if they ever loved me

or simply lvoed the perfect person that i created for them.


i think i read the art of seduction at too young an age...because when I meet someone i subconsiously study them
what their aspirations are,

their dreams...............................their goals.................................their fears and

i watch myself perform the incredible feat of becoming

.....................exactly

....................................................................what

..........................they've always wanted


How could they not be impressed by the creation of their ideal woman
in a 5 foot package

of exaggerated curves

and ainimated joy just at the thought of seeing you

......................like a puppy after a long day at work

....or a kitten - ..................depending on your mood


i was good when you wanted good
bad when you wanted bad

.....................................................wicked on occasion


Until I'd wake up and realize that i was nowhere where i wanted to be
and......................................................................................................................left


i knew aunts and uncles by name
best friends by birthdays, their girlfriend by address

and every other girl you called at night...................................by number


and never said a word
until it suited me

and by then

you were too late to ever win

the argument


i would mold myself into the very form you desired, without realizing that i was
c..h.....a..........n.............g.....................i...............................n.....................................g

but it's always easier to put on an act

than admit to the insecurities i've always felt

of being just a little too BIG

and just a little too small

just a little too happy

and just a little not happy............at all


But always exactly what you wanted me to be

but i don't want to be that for you



i want the next one to see the flaws

Like...

that i don't like wearing heels...........................................unless its night
and i'm most comfortable in sweats till noon

and i think thigh highs and garters are sexy

................and men in ties turn me on..................................a little


i love to cook when i'm stressed
i listen to slow jams in the shower...........................not in aslutty way, but because i genuinely like them

and my favorite position is sleeping right inthe croock of your shoulder at night


i want you to tell me i'm sexy
when i dress up - or don't dress up

but not in a vulgar way

........................in a poetic way that gives me chills and butterflies

...........................and actually makes me feel beautiful and not like a porn star you're paying for the night

and sometimes i want to feel like that pornstar

................but not always


i want to sit and discuss things with you
and argue and laugh

and watch your face change as the topics change

and grow old

and more distinguished

and more in love with me


and i want to know your flaws
like you hate asparagus...............................but love broccoli

and i hate feet.................but love when you massage them

and that we both skip to the end of book

.......................................to see the conclusion

and we like the rain

and we like getting wet

......................but preferably not at the same time

and i secretly think you're smarter than me, but i'd never tell you


and i want you to know that i've always through my sister the prettier one
...........................and my brother the smarter one

and that my father loved me best

.......................until he left

..................................................................................and i still have a complex about it

but that i won't let it come between us like before


i want you to know i think you're beautiful
...............................and that i've always thought you were sexy

but i never said anything, because i'm actually a little shy

and i never know how to say it..........................................................and still sound genuine

but i think about it all the time

even before you knew i was thinking it

and not just your smile

or your eyes

but for the way you think
and the way you speak

.....................and the accent you sometimes try to hide

and your ears that are a little too big......and your lips that are a little too full

and the fact that you make me feel just a little insecure

in a sexy way


and i'd still think you were
................even if you had warts

................and little feet

................and a humpback

......................................................................................ok maybe i'm pushing it a little

but i'd still be attracted to your heart

.............and your mind

........................and your words

............................................and the way you've always made me feel

even when youre mean....................................or i'm mean

and moody...............................................................or i'm moody

..................or we're both dating the wrong people

but we still secretly know.....the perfect flaws we have within each other



but i've never told anyone that.........but i want you to know


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