my husbands gone.

i don't know if that's even a true statement since thinking back on the entire situation i don't know if he was ever really here to begin with.

my husbands gone.

maybe if i jut keep saying it something will click.

my husbands gone


and it feels like my best friend died. or my confidant. or my arch enemy moved in next door and keeps stealing my parking place.

my husbands gone



and sometimes i wake up in the morning and think that this is just one big joke. one long nightmare. i'll wake up a year ago. 2 years ago. 3 years ago......4 years ago and none of this would have happened and we'll just be....

my husbands gone....


and i don't know which is worse - that he's gone or that he's still here...and i have to look at him and speak to him and realize that at some point in the lasy year he turned into someone that i want no part in.

my husbands gone...........

and it feels like the world has stopped spinning sometimes.
like everything is backwards. and up is down. and right is wrong. and no one realizes how much it hurts just to wake up every morning and keep going....


my husbands gone.

i wonder if ppl know it just by looking at me. i wonder if you stand close enough you can hear my heart breaking. i wonder if pain radiates off a person like heat.



i wonder if he even hurts like this....



my husband gone................and if you looked at him you'd never know the last 2 years ever happened