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!!!Happy New Year!!!

I rang in the new year with the ladies at Hogates, It was a nice night with its many ups and downs. VIP was amazing, main floor was wack and my feel feel like i was drop kicking bricks...or walking the streets of DC without shoes on - which at one point did happen.

all in all it was a good night. I dunno if Id mix those 3 girls again. Ashley was a little out of place and made it known. Isis and Cici were going with the flow as usual. the stories i could tell would take weeks...so i'll just wait and tell you about it later.

plans for tonight fell through. Trey Songz came to town and literally closed the club down. for 96 hours. I'm taking this as a sign- this is what? the 3rd time 4th time? that Drake has come to town to perform that I will not be seeing him. My sister finally told me it's time to just "let him go..."

so here I am letting him go.... :-(

so we'll see whats good for tomorrow night. its only friday so I'll just keep it moving...

i'm that girl

so I have a secret: I'm in love...

awkward enough i know...what makes it worse is i've never met the guy. I've never been one to have celebrity crushes, but here I am with my first (and hopefully last) celebrity infatuation. (not counting my elementary crush on Leonardo DiCaprio...but lets be serious who didn't love him in the late 90's?)




anyway. I am 23 years old and here I am without even an excuse for the crush. but what makes it worse is its not even sexual (don't get me wrong it could be...) but its really intellectual. I mean I want to curl up in a corner with him, sipping tea with lemon and just banter. I want to trade letters and words, and see what he thinks when I say this and find something clever to say when he says that. I want to listen to his explanations to his ideas. I want to see his passion born. I want to be the fly on the wall while he comes up with the lyrics that somehow speak to me...



ewww...i'm that girl.

so its almost new years and the plans have been made and he's coming to town. for the 3rd time to be in fact. (well to be accurate he didn't show the first time). Anyway each time i've somehow been unable to be in attendance to his concerts until now. Now I know that nothing is going to come of this. I know there are three thousand ppl who will be there...but that hasn't stopped my over active imagination to creating this ideal situation where he sees me and i become his muse. His ideal. love at first site...like the first time i heard him and i didn't even know who he was...

but hey a girl is allowed to dream right?

so i'll just continue from chapter 10 of my day dream where we're currently vacationing in our villa in the south of france. I think his mother's coming to visit and I have a lasagna warming in the oven...its so warm out today. I've always loved visiting here...the sound of the shore... the humming of the waves...his senseless chatter while he plans his summer tour in the states...



sometimes its only acceptable to delve into your daydreams

when the truth isn't enough

have you ever talked to someone and known they were lying? I was talking to an old friend the other day. We haven't really hung out since she graduated...no thats not true. since she stopped dating efron who was my year. so its been like a good year since we've actually genuinely hung out.

there were three of us who were inseparable. Jemar- me - Ashley...occasionally Quagmire but rarely. they were all seniors and i was the sophomore in the crowd. i met Jemar because we were both Resident Assistants and since my school only has about 50 black ppl out of 1500 students and at the time 5 black RAs we quickly became friends. it was an awkward relationship - he had a gf who had recently graduated and wasn't really used to being without a female companion- i had recently broken up with my freshmen bf. Quag came along with the deal (to this day we're not quite sure how or why those two are friends). Ashley somehow joined in sometime in december. Jemar was trying to sleep with her- it never panned out to my knowledge- but she just joined the circle and never left. we went to all the same parties, hung out with all of the same people and when they graduated we all said goodbye and i was left at McDaniel alone without my Porthos or Aramis.

Jemar ended up moving down the street from where i live now. Dating a girl on and off who hated me on site. we haven't really spoken since a drunken night where he explained that thing should have ended differently between the two of us and then proceeded to hide behind trees while walking me to my car- afraid that his then off again gf would see us.

i told him i've never really been interested on weak men

Ashley lives in baltimore. still fiends with my ex. she randomly hit me up the other day about new years. she heard Trey Songz and Drake were coming into town and wanted to go out - absolutely no problem since I have recently entered my club years loong after the rest of my friend have left theirs behind. we made plans - called friends - bought outfits...and she flaked out

literally a minute ago

he grandfather is coming into town.

for a day

from 6pm till 9am on the 1st




its a lie and we both know it


but why ruin a perfectly awkward friendship by telling the truth.



i guess i could just stay in...or call in a favor with Isata and beg her to come out....

open and available

we've spoiled my niece to the point that she refuses to sleep anywhere but in someone's arms. If she were to wake up in one of the thousands of bids, swings or bouncers, that we searched and purchased in the appointed colors of pink rose and chocolate, she'd flip out...FLIP...like pure nonsense for hours on end...

after twenty-three years of being a predominately tummy sleeper - i have somehow learned how to sleep perfectly still on my back, because i know that

at somepoint in the night one of the three other ppl in my house appointed to entertain her highness will deposit a sleeping child into my arms. even in a deep sleep i've learned to rock a child back to sleep

how something only 8 pounds and 21 inches has learned to control an entire house...i'll never know

so i'm trying to figure out what to do for new years. DC is full of options and opportunities- the only problem is clubbing in dc means hanging out with the over excited hoards of college students. Don't get me wrong, i was one of them a few months ago...but there is a large maturity gap between 18 and 23 and i'm worried that the best places are going to open the doors for the ragingly hormonal. Last time I went to LOVE I almost killed someone who was too busy trying to get into some 18 year old in lace leggings and t-shirt that i pushed the wrong person who spilled a drink on me...who expected me to buy HIM another one.

of course the time before that (the wayne after party) my now ex showed up and threw someone down the stairs for getting a little too close...i'll save that story for another time...

I'd go to the usual Jamaican spot- 24

- but the fact that ppl are starting to recognize me and going usually means having my sister's fiance watching every move I make...i'm thinking new years might not be a good time to have a baby sitter...

We've got the 1st of January planned already.

just the 31st is open and available.

but we'll find something.......we always do